Ramadhan and Thesis

I was planning to put a Hiatus status here, but then again, I think I do need a place to write down anything that I feel, or I think about. Since I've closed my livejournal temporarily, this blog became the last option to write down my thoughts.

Anyway, speaking about Ramadhan, without being realized, it's already the 20th day of Ramadhan. I can't even feel a bit of the magic of Ramadhan. This is all because of my stupid and selfish character, of course, since I only care about my study and other unimportant stuffs. I feel very sorry about it, and keep wondering, will I get this opportunity again? I almost never praying seriously. Only doing it as an obligation, like before. I hate myself for became a person like this. I want to change! I have to change. But where must I start?
I wonder if the sentence of "better late than never" is really work for me..

And thesis. Have I said that I have no progress since Mr. Nyoman gave the topic to me? Man, I was so lazy. Correction, I AM so lazy. I don't understand why I have no strong will to do my thesis. This is yur future, dammit! Can't you grow up and realize it???

As a conclusion, I need to change. Right away. NOW.