Random Rambling

As the title can state, this following post won't have a certain topic. Therefore, no systematic paragraphs will be represent here. You can read it if you want to, anyway.

So first, what I want to ramble about is the phenomenon of Malaysia claiming some of our culture to be theirs. I thought I don't have to tell you from the beginning. All Indonesians (or maybe some of global citizens) have already known that Malaysia has claimed several of our cultures to be theirs. Simple examples are song of "rasa sayange" and "reog" (which is named Barongan later).

At first, like the other Indonesians may react, I was certainly angry and wondered; how come they did such a thing that is terrible enough, and have a great opportunity to set a "big war" between Indonesia and Malaysia. Me and my mom discussed it, and at that moment, we even sang some old song (which I don't know the title is, I only know the lyric of "ganyang malaysia"). But then again, as we continued our discussion, we realized something within this case. Yes, Malaysia claimed our culture to be theirs, but HAVE we PROTECTED and TOOK CARE our own cultures since the beginning? I don't think so. Lot and lot stories about abandoned artists were shown on television, like agreeing our thought.

So, who is to be blamed? Malaysia? Or ourselves? Maybe we should consider again to EVALUATE ourselves, especially in this culture-problem.

Second thing to rambled about is..my english. Darn, I feel like my english is getting worse everyday. Erm..not exactly, really. But I know it's not getting good anyway. Since I never practice it anywhere, it's obvious that I can't have my english better than before. Don't you think so? Of course it is. That's why I'm totally jealous to rhama, who can always write everything in his blog beautifully. It's true. I love his wrting-style. And in the same time, envy him. I'm considering in kidnapping him and take some of his english ability to be mine...

Third thing which is unimportant...I have 15 hamsters now. Anyone, please take some of them?Fourth, my thesis!!! I wonder myself why I put this important topic in the fourth point, but well, I don't really care. I finally have my programmer (again!) and we're planning to finish the program as soon as possible. Oh, may Allah give the best way for me. Amen.

My lab is the next. I really want to punch my head of laboratory for giving me new tasks WHILE I'm doing my thesis. Like I have no other thing better to be done. At first, I thought my lab was going to be an extraordinary lab here (compared to other labs in my college). But as time passed..I'm rethinking about it.

Haaahh....any other topic for me to be rambled about?

dèja vu and self-awareness

Last year, after I had had my presentation of my final project, I found out that I got an AB (or B+) for it. Since I thought I’d get an A, of course I felt very dissappointed. I cried a lot after I got home, and promised that this kind of thing wouldn’t be happened again (well, at the moment I didn’t think I would take a master program right after graduated...).

Yesterday, like dèja vu, it happened again. Right after had my presentation, my nice supervisor asked me to meet him, and with low voice he said, “....actually it only needs a little more for you before getting an A....”

Was it wrong for me to get an A?

Like last year, I cried a lot (again). And by a lot, I mean A LOT. It’s so weird, just by thinking about the presentation, or my supervisor’s words, I could weep all around. My eyes were hurt, yet I still cried at night.

But after that, I couldn’t stop thinking; why it happened? Was it my faults? Seems no other reason better than that. Of course, everything’s my fault. I didn’t try as hard as I could. I kept complaining, and felt depressed without any certain reason. I didn’t try my best to do it. Or at least, that’s what I could think about the reason behind this B+ score. It’s ALL MY FAULTS.

I know I’ll be okay. I’m a strong girl, as I can say. Crying a bit won’t change that opinion. I will get better, and will be encouraged to try again (and much harder) than before to get an A for the final presentation. Even though, yes, sometimes I worry that my passion will dissappear and I’ll end up with...another cry.

But let’s not think negative, shall we?

Ganbatte!

Serial TV : Supernatural

Since TransTV (one of local television here) played Heros, some of local televisions follow it by buying some good serials and put it on prime time (which, of course, a first smart step that was token by those televisions.. :P).

One of the serial that now makes me addicted is Supernatural.

Yep. As maybe some of you have known, Supernatural is a story about two brothers, Dean (Jensen Ackles) and Sam Winchester (Jared Padelecki), who cruise cross country to hunt some spooky ghosts that usually related to cultural ghost-story in certain cities. While doing this hunting, they search a demon that has killed their parents and Sam's girlfriend.

Well, I never really into some ghost stories. I tend to avoid this kind of movie. But when I tried to see several episodes (I didn't follow the serial since the first episode), something attracted me. Yes. The sibling-relation between Dean and Sam in recent episodes are already enough to make me fall in love with this movie (and to both of them, of course). Even they don't say it clearly, and even some quarrels keep occur between them, they actually love each other. The small quarrels don't stop them in protecting each other whenever they face problems (read : ghosts).

One title being added to my "favorite serial TV" list. I wonder if other televisions will also play some nice serial TVs in a short time? Let's hope and wait, shall we? :)

Refreshing

I'll have my presesntation on Monday. So....wish me luck, would you??? *pray*

Anyway, some meme.. :)

Which Heroes Character Are You?
	You are Hiro. You are everyones favorite Japanese tourist. Your time is well-managed and you make sure things get done. On top of that, the girls always want a second chance with you.
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

Student Syndrome

Have you ever heard term of "Student Syndrome"? I first noticed this term when I was reading about Critical Chain, a theory of constraints that applied in project management. This idea was introduced by Goldratt, on 1997 (if I am not mistaken). And talking about Goldratt, it means talking about "The Goal". "The Goal"? Yep. You should read "The Goal" written by Mr. Goldratt. It was such a fascinating book, especially for you that are interested in Production Planning and Control *smile*

Anyway, back to Student Syndrome, to be simple, Student Syndrome refers to habit - that is usually owned by students (no offense, anyone). And what is the habit? You probably can guess it : a habit to delay everything that ACTUALLY can be done earlier. In our cases, as students, this habit is generally noticed by our behavior in delaying doing our assignments until tha last minute before submitting (well, if you're not, then at least I did it.. *giggles*). In project, well, this can be described in many ways; delaying the drawings, delaying the deadline of purchasing material, vice versa. Of course, logically, this could cause a fatal condition for us, whether in a context of students at college, or in project.

And that's what I felt last Friday : a total mess! Again, I was in hurry in submitting my thesis proposal, just because my laziness to finish it on time. I delayed my plan to edit the proposal. Thus, that made the printing process become late too. And as a result? Well, as I said... It was totally a rush hour for me. I swore that time, that I wouldn't do it again next time.

But then again..somehow I didn't believe myself. Can this Student Syndrome really be eliminated from me? :(

Ah, well. Just do my best, then? Ganbatte, ne!